Archive for February, 2009
I have two assignments due on friday. hurray.
thing is, I am almost done with both of them.
thing is, I am not done with either of them.
And these are not the sit down and type it all out assignments. I actually did research. well… I sort of crap a little in the end, expecially with that video but what can I do? I am drained.
I realised that the assignments make good excuses. I didn’t do tutorial… because I have 2 assignments due this week. In fact I decided to push everything to after friday. hurray for my procrastinating skills. I am damn screwed. This is exactly the kind of situation I swore I won’t get into since well.. since i did badly last term. But I guess a leopard never changes its spots.
It was kind of funny the other day. That Jonathan shook hands with me again… like the first time he introduced himself. Actually, that was the third time I think… apparently he couldn’t remember my name. And I was like… we did that before. But he couldn’t get my name after that anyway. seriously, is it that hard to remember? I think I can actually understand if he is indian or something. Ah wells, the next time I hear “Hi, I am Jonathan” *shakes hand* again… I will probably be like… !!!!!!!!!!!
I still don’t get the whole concept of sitting together during lectures. The other day, my coursemates came and sat with me even though I was in a corner they didn’t like and the chairs were absolutely gross. (not mine of course, but the ones around.) That made me very paiseh. Maybe they think I am very lonely. But you know, I am seldom lonely. And the other day, they were earlier and they sat in the middle. even making sure that there is a powerpoint. But I don’t like to sit in the middle so I pretended not to see them and sat in my usual corner. And when the invitation came, I just said I was too lazy to move. ok, I am so antisocial. But I am much friendlier now. Maybe because there are more things to talk about now that we have known each other for a longer time.
well some people are passive, some are active. And I have nothing against the active ones. They are the reasons why people are able to make friends right.
I watched the departed the other day. I was so sad, why did leod die. I like leod, ever since titanic. I mean, he did grow fat and old and not that good looking. But I like him better now than before. I don’t know why. Maybe because he is still charming, but doesn’t have that idolish feeling anymore. But then again, I like yamapi who is super idolish. But of course, it is a little different. I like leod better. haha.
which again reminds me about that stupid thing with the aviator. BAH.
I bought 2 cocacola glass bottles with the coke still inside. One for 5 dollars. Yea, ok, I am a spendthrift. But I have never seen it before, I mean, people selling it that is. There are some in my aunt’s house but mine actually has the drink inside! err.. the expiry date is sometime in 1999. I own a 10 year old coke! hahaha.
No, I own 2 of them, one black, the other red. I feel like buying myself a tiffany ring. Simply because it is tiffany. Oh, the other time, I wanted the mont blanc bracelet. And I am not over it yet. I just need the opportunity. like airport… dutyfree etc. I realise that I have this thing for jewellery, even though I don’t wear them, I like to buy them. especially rings.
and this is enough to convince myself that I am not too far from being a girly girl.
Make it good
I just saw this blog entry. The person, like so many others, wrote that it doesn’t matter how long that moment is, if you treasure it like you should, then you should have no regrets because you didn’t lose it. I have heard this, read this many many times. Live and treasure each moment, it is better to have it once than not to have it at all blah blah blah.
Those are just things that people preach about, sounds very cliche to me. SO I never really thought about it much. To me, it is like how maths is like nowadays. You listen, but there is no need to process it or think too deeply about it.
But today, I actually thought about it. And I decided that it is quite BS. I mean, if I want something, it has to last. And that has nothing to do with me treasuring it or not. Because if I want it, naturally I will also treasure it. If I don’t, it just means I didn’t want it hard enough. And to lose something you treasure is definitely regrettable. Because if I knew that I will lose it eventually, then I will rather not have it or know about it at all.
I want my life to be beautiful and exciting. I don’t want it to be ONCE beautiful and exciting. I would rather not knowing what beautiful is. And if one day I make it good, I will want it to be better and better. If I lose it, then I will try and bring it back. I will not sit there and sigh, “thank god I treasured it.”
It does matter how long that moment last. Saying otherwise is just a way of consolation.
But I am always the person who lives in the moment. I am like the spendthrift, the procrastinator etc etc. But I do one day hope to be a spendthrift and procrastinator without having to worry about anything. Well, maybe not procrastinator since time has a limit.
First, I should try and understand maths.
Just once a year
Went with parents to some once a year gathering with their ex-classmates. Yes, I do find it quite wonderful that my parents were seconary school mates and they still meet their clique after like 10000 years. What I find even more interesting is that I actually go! And some other old kids as well. Some even older than me.
Though the number has decreased significantly over the years. I remember back when I was 7 or 8, the kids are always there. But then again, it never matters to me since I have been anti-social since I was born.
I think I attend every single gathering for as long as I remember… yes, there was even a video of me when I was 3 or something. They dug something like that out some years back. I missed a year… but that was because I was busy. So I think that makes me a really good kid. I mean, I follow my parents around to these places with like people I see once a year. Plus, I usually have nothing to do. And the fact that I am nearly 20 so is totally capable of taking care of myself and my own meals. This means that I go to these gatherings volunteerily.
Conclusion is, I am one hell of a good kid.
muahahaha.
Of course, I must admit that while it is time wasting, part of me enjoy such things. Because it is interesting. To see them talk, and to see what they do etc. And there is this funny uncle who talks funny stuff and likes to ask me questions. Every year, he asks if I got attached. He said we should all hurry up soon. Because school is when you do stuff like that. haha. yea right. As far as I am concerned, school is where I do labs, tutorials and attend lectures. And get projects.
I drove a lot today. that makes me happy. But my dad had his hand on the handbrake the whole time. That makes me irritated.