Social life
It is only recently that I realised that dealing with social situations, people is not easy at all. I mean, I sort of knew that all along, if not, I wouldn’t have all those discussions on corridors etc. with friends. But I always had good friends hanging around me. And somehow or other, they seem to do the interacting for me. I never had to converse much, I never found anything awkward if a good friend was there. True, there are times when I entered a completely new social situation without a friend but those things are not very significant. After all, the people around me were not going to stay around me, they disappear fast.
Now, I am in a completely different situation. The first few weeks of college life without my good friends with me, I spent alone. Most of the time. I knew people here and there but I don’t stick around people. I am not unfriendly, in fact I am quite friendly. Just that I never have anything to talk about and I never see the need to. The first few weeks were ok since I just knew these people and I guess they don’t expect to hang around with me either. But just recently, a girl asked me when I was leaving for lecture, “Why didn’t you wait for me?” True, in a joking manner, but I realised that after a few weeks of having lessons together, people now treat me as a friend and don’t mind hangin out with me. Things like asking me to sit together with them during lectures and such. And automatically sitting with me during lecture. kind of weird. Because when I walk into a lecture hall, I don’t look for people I know, I look for a convenient seat for me to stand up and leave, and sometimes, powerpoint. So these nice gestures of other people, inviting me to sit with them, sitting with me then says let’s sit there I see so and so are actually making things inconvenient.
And the thing is, they are not come and go people. They are my coursemates so even though I may be an idiot, I do know that I should at least maintain an ok relationship. Don’t have to be besties or whatever but yea…
Being the social idiot that I am, I feel like I am only just beginning to learn to deal with social life. After all, my good friends clicked with me kind of automatically. Or maybe it is just easier to make good friends when one is younger.